Time alone

I was wondering what did people mean when they said they felt sad. Is it like what i am feeling now? Sadness? Is it supposed to feel this way? Or is it something else?

People always say they are feeling sad. But how do they what they're feeling is really sadness? Why can't it be something else? Anger maybe? Hopelessness? Who knows for sure?

My heart has been feeling annoyingly weird ever since god knows when. It's almost impossible to describe. My brain, maybe collaborating with my heart or something close to that, has been working like its made of marshmallows. It sucks to be honest, so much that it feels like immense torture mostly.

I was contemplating whether or not to leave the house and go to some quiet park or something, where i could really sit down and clear my mind. I would have, actually, if i had found a place to go. Unfortunately, i couldn't. 

Sometimes i really wish i could turn back time, so that i wouldn't have done all the retarded stuff that i did, so i wouldn't have to regret now.