13th June 2009

Ever since that day, i've been getting people telling me the same things. "Don't emo", and "Forget her" are two of the more common ones. Truth is, that's what i've been telling myself day in and out. If it's supposed to work, it'd have worked long ago. 

Maybe time really could heal all wounds. But being in the situation i'm in now, i don't really have much time left. When they said time could heal wounds, it could mean a day, a week, a month, or even a year. And you know what, i don't have a year to get myself back together.

I don't know. It wasn't supposed to be this bad. I mean, come on, i haven't even known her for more than 3 months. Well, by "know" i mean being friends. What's wrong with me? 

You know, i really really want to blame her for all this. But, truth is, what rights do i have to do so? I've done pretty evil things myself. And if i really wanted to blame someone, it would be myself to blame in the first place. Blame myself for getting into all this shit. 

Before school ended, i told myself that the holidays would be a good time for me to forget her. But apparently, it's not going half as well as i thought it would have. Too much more time to think about retarded stuff during the holidays. 

I'm thinking of making this blog a private one. So that only people whom i know are trustworthy enough to read this will be able to read it. I don't know, it bothers me a bit to not know who are reading my blog and who aren't. So yea, maybe i'll do it soon.