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Taken from xkcd.

21st August 2009

Who am i, really?

I've been asking myself that a lot, recently.

It feels like my confidence is being drained out of me with every passing minute.

I need someone, anyone, to tell me that i'm still me, the good ol' me.

20th August 2009

Time flies, huh. One day follows another and, whaddya know, it's august.

I'm really losing confidence, ain't i? I find it harder to look into people's eyes nowadays. That sucks.

3 more months. 3 more months and I'll be out of here.

3 more months to look at you.

Then i won't be seeing you again, huh. Not for a very long time anyway.

That sucks, too.

18th August 2009

I should really be studying my Chemistry now. But who cares. XD.

Discovery channel's one of the best TV channel ever created. I just can't stop watching. Doing Da Vinci was fascinating. I wasn't exactly convinced when everyone said Leonardo was a genius like no other. Now i am. His war machines aren't just destructive. They are EPIC. Just take a look at this one.

Comparing the technology during the 14th century and now, this tank would be called a work of art. No matter how destructive a tank's cannon is, it has its limitations. For one, it only shoots ONE cannon at a time. This monster shoots THIRTY. This thing could wipe out more than 100 people in one shot. Not kidding.

Everytime i watch shows like this. I feel like building something myself. Not war machines, obviously. Something less violent. Maybe a robot. Or something. Someday i may just build a transformer. You never know. =). For now, though, Chemistry comes first.

16th August 2009

It just doesn't feel right. Not good either. Meh.

Bored.

Ok i'm really bored. And not in the mood for chem. Or any other subject for that matter. Copied from our favourite facebook.

50 Secrets.
Be honest no matter what, then tag at least 15 friends.

01. Who was your last text from?
CNANewspack -.-.

02. Where was your default picture taken?
CIP camp

03. Your relationship status?
Single

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yea

06. How many siblings do you have?
2

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
RX , WC

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
Anywhere but Singapore

09. Have a crazy side?
Pretty much

10. Ever had a near death experience?
Does the 20+ ops count?

11. Something you do a lot?
Think. Excessively.

12. Angry at anyone?
Myself

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Everything

14. When was the last time you cried?
Let's leave this alone.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yea

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Too much

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mum

18. What is your favorite song?
Lots. Mostly cheena.

19. What are you doing right now?
This stupid quiz.

20. Who do you trust right now?
Lets see..

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Wushu.

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
No.

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
No idea.... They all live near.

24. Describe your life in one word?
Sucks

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
Someone i'm not supposed to be thinking of.

26. What should you be doing right now?
Chemistry.

27. What are you listening to?
Over You - Chris Daughtry

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Yi'en? I think.

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Can't remember. Too long ago.

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
I guess.

31. What is your natural hair color?
Black

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
BD/Edmund. One of them.

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
Me.

34. What do you hear?
The stupid fan which can't spin.

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
Straight

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
Next.

37. Do you have a best friend?
Yea.

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
No.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Does XD count?

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Not that i remember.

41. Are you happy with life right now?
To be honest, no.

42. Are you currently jealous?
No.

43. What jewelery are you currently wearing?
Guan yin ma necklace.

44. What were you doing on Friday night?
Sleeping.

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yea.

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes.

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?

Me.

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
To get a MC.

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
Not late. Slept at 10.

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Nope.

14th August 2009

Life sucks, and i'm not even halfway through it.

Three more months to As, and all that's in my mind is you.

13th August 2009

I feel emotional.

Not sad.

Just, emotional.

Love.

A word i try not to use.

At least not until i'm sure of it.

I hate it.

I hate it when i like someone and there's nothing i can do about it.

Not even when she's just 2 metres away from me.

I hate to like someone whom i'm not supposed to.

Someone whom i know i'll never ever have a chance to be with.

I hate myself.

11th August 2009

Blog's pretty dead huh. Boring, too. Life sucks, really, and i don't exactly plan to bore you all out with my whinings. But heck, no one's gonna read this anyway. I just need a platform to bitch.

School's a bitch. Big time. I'm really starting to get the jitters, what with the countdown to prelims being put at the noticeboard outside the GO. A week ago i started making myself revise formulas before i went to sleep, or any time when i wasn't busy, like going them over and over through my head and stuff like that. Now i'm starting to regret it. The headaches are way more than i can handle, not to forget the sleepless nights too.

I don't know. Sometimes, or should i say, everytime when i lie down on my bed at night, i can't help but wonder what i'm doing all this for. Not that i'm doing much, but that's beside the point. So yes, i'm gonna need an A level certificate so that i can get into a good University course and maybe get a PhD. But is that what i really want? We all don't want to screw up our As because everyone else is not gonna screw up, because they keep telling us how important this is. And then 10 years down the road, we realise we're all just pretty much the same, facing the same problems every other singaporean is facing. Money not enough.

Meh, i guess it all boils down to one fact, living here sucks. =(

And on a lighter note, i got hooked onto this song. Yes lag, i know. No matter, someday, i'm gonna sing this song and mean it.

Over You lyrics

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.