Thursday, October 29, 2009

29th Oct 2009

Just some random thoughts. It's actually kind of funny that at my age, if i were to actually reminisce about my life, all these 18 years and everything that happened inbetween, i could well end up tearing.

It's weird though, it feels like part of my brain has lived well over 50 years. While the other smaller portion thinks as if it's a 5 year old. Maybe it's just me, but i feel like i shouldn't belong to this age group. Perhaps an excuse i came up for being the school-hating me that i am.

Oh, another random thought. I was thinking how sucky it was to be a teen. As a teen we have our "teen" problems to deal with, in addition to the new "adult" problems surfacing, and we're lacking in experience for both sorts. So yea, enjoy your life, adults. We're not getting it smooth here either.

Monday, October 5, 2009

5th October 2009

It's like getting slapped right in the face. How could I have not realised? Such a deep hole i have fell into. And even so i constantly dig downwards, without a clue as to how deep i've gotten. But now, as I put the spade into the soil for the last time, I sense heat, I sense magma.

Holy shit. What have i done.